chelsheeee n-n

sleep with one eye open.

porcelainandthechokehold — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 07:38:39 +0000

ripped apert in minutes, what was built in seven years.
but now you sold our friendship, you’re on your fucking own.
if i had it my way, i’d slit your throat with the knife that you left in my back.
all this shame, all this guilt, all this regret.
from the inside out, everything will fall apart at your feet.
get on your fucking knees, and cry me a fucking river.
best friends means forever, cunt.

i hate watching myself turn to scum.

porcelainandthechokehold — Fri, 05 Mar 2010 23:43:02 +0000

but i don’t.

head towards the light, the dark has no place here.

porcelainandthechokehold — Thu, 04 Mar 2010 06:01:51 +0000

i really just feel like i’m drowning.
i can’t go back there, please don’t make me.
hold my hand, just tell me everything will be okay.
that’s all i want.
security.

i can’t even face myself these days.

sorry

porcelainandthechokehold — Sat, 09 Jan 2010 11:46:06 +0000

for the lack of posts.

nothing interesting has happened.
cool.

i love stardoll.
if you have it.
find chokeholddd.

GOT MILK?

porcelainandthechokehold — Thu, 07 Jan 2010 10:57:50 +0000

the good life.

porcelainandthechokehold — Wed, 06 Jan 2010 06:49:17 +0000

beau, ben, casey, valene, boni, sarah, julia and andrew came over today.
it was nice ^-^

starting to know why these are the kids i want to be with forever.
because they’re all just overly amazing.
i can trust them all with anything.
and yeah.
enough deep shit for now.
i think i’ve vented enough in here.

absolute love.

biggest celebrity crush

porcelainandthechokehold — Tue, 05 Jan 2010 00:19:24 +0000

pretty much perfection, right there.

dreams..

porcelainandthechokehold — Mon, 04 Jan 2010 10:40:34 +0000

when i was two years old, i wanted to be a singer.
i was always so sure, from that little age.
all i wanted to ever do, was stand up on a stage and sing my little heart out.
i wanted to be the next britney, delta even lindsay lohan.
until i was about eleven years old, when i started to doubt my so-called “talent”.

singing is something i’ve always loved, but never really had a talent for.
by the time i was twelve, my dreams of becoming a singer were crushed.
purely because of the fact that i hate my own voice.
but maybe, just maybe i shouldn’t have given that up.
i will never have any idea.

my next dream, acting.
that was just fail.
end of story.

next was model.
that was obviously pointless.

then it was hairdresser and makeup artist.
which is what i’m planning to do in the future.
seems like such a girly job, for someone like me, who really isn’t that girly.
i just like cheesy girly movies ^-^

but my dream for this year is really just to be a decent person.
and not lose anybody along the way.

you may say i’m a dreamer, but i’m not the only one.
i hope some day you’ll join us, and the world will be as one.

xx chelsea.

wake up, grab a brush and put a little makeup.

porcelainandthechokehold — Sat, 02 Jan 2010 10:21:02 +0000

slow down, you’re losing everybody chelsea.

porcelainandthechokehold — Sat, 02 Jan 2010 08:39:03 +0000

the one truthbox thats ever had an impact on me.
mainly because it was purely the truth.

i don’t even know what i’m doing.
but as soon as everything started being perfect.
it’s now all falling to pieces.

i guess i started getting too comfortable, and started just assuming that my friends would always be there for me.
no matter what.
but it’s time to face the facts, they won’t be.
i don’t think i’m treating them completely bad, i just think i need to treat them better.
i have good intentions, i really do.
i’ve just lost my way, and i need to find a path back home.

i started getting so many new friends, and started treating them better than my original friends.
i don’t know what’s wrong with me.
i need to stop.

i’d love to swear that i’m a decent person.
but i’m starting to honestly not know.

help.
xx chelsea.